Saturday, June 2, 2007

Harmless . . . Continues

Once I began to let my guard down, the probing really turned on full force. I am not one to keep secrets or keep things to myself. I tend to tell people too much about me, after I feel comfortable with them. This is what a sociopath preys upon. They will only tell you things about themselves that they have rationalized and come to some sort of "that was ok, because of," it's never thinking that maybe they did something wrong. I was being suckered into telling of my past and hearing only of a past that was superficial from the sociopath. When it became redundant on his part, I should have seen this as a warning sign. He would say the same thing over and over again, as if to talk himself into believing that what he was saying is what actually occurred. This was not the case with a lot of things he was saying. After getting out of the relationship and discussing situation with his former ex-wife, it was evident he lived in a fantasy world in which he created by talking himself, sort of brainwashing himself, into a past that he could deal with. Then he began doing that with my past. I would tell him something that I had done or a decision that I had made, and he would mind F*%K it into something that he could use in the present to explain my decisions or actions. It was the strangest thing I have ever experienced, and now looking back very dangerous behaviour. Beware the person who lives in the past.......